a post 4 years ago (edited)

Instructions: Each player starts with 7 random habits/facts about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their seven things, as well as these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose 7 people to get tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them that they have been tagged and to read your blog!

Seven things I wanna share:

1. I never took any college entrance exam when I was still in high school (e.g.: UPCAT).

2. I'm obsessive-compulsive and I sometimes hate it.

3. I have a long tongue (and I don't find it sexy, I find it weird).

4. I'm finally living my dream (I'm taking up Mass Communications).

5. My childhood food includes: mapo tofu, seafood kare-kare, sibut, dinuguan, cabbage with egg, etc.

6. I used to be scared of marriage, but now, marriage doesn't seem so scary at all.

7. I like babies/kids.
Tag: Alphabet Version...

A - Age: 21

B - Band Listening To Right Now: oh a lot. My playlist is filled with songs from Queso, Faspitch, Urbandub, Greyhoundz, etc. (OPM)

C - Career: full time student. Yes, I call it a career, well, it's a stepping stone before having the "actual" career.

D - Drink or Smoke: I used to drink like there's no tomorrow, but now, I don't anymore. I'm back from being an occasional drinker. And I don't smoke. I smoked few times, only when I was sooooooo full and when I'm soooo drunk.

E - Easiest Friends To Talk To: There's a lot,really.

F - First Crush: Dean Richard. (I hope he won't be able to read this. hehe)

G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: gummy bears. I find them more interesting to eat; you may start with the head, or with the legs, or arms, or tummy, the list of combination is endless :)

H - Have a Girlfriend/Boyfriend: boyfriend <3

I - In love: very much :)

J- Junk Food You Like: any potato chips.

K - Kids: I like them. They're adorable.

L - Longest Ride Ever: Leyte-Manila landtrip

M - Making love out of nothing at all: hahaha. No.

N - Names For Your Future Kids: depends. if it's a boy: Amadeus Seven, If it's a girl: Marie Mignotte

O - One Wish You Have Now: I wish everything would be okay.

P - Phobias: closed space and crowded areas

Q - Favorite Quote: There's a lot.

R - Reasons To Smile: my life and everything on it

S - Sleeping Time: it varies.

T - Time You Woke Up: quarter to 7

U - Unknown Fact About You:

V - Vegetable You Hate: anything slimy, I don't like it. e.g.: okra

W - Worst Habit:

X - X-rays You’ve Had: I had my x-ray 2008, for my health card

Y - Yummy Foods: There's a lot, I love 'em all ;)

Z - Zodiac Sign: capricorn

Estreya (revisited)

Before having this site, I have an old blog, I've been juggling that blog from April 2007 until April 2008.  Fast forward to 2011, I'm reading my old posts from my old blog and I can't help but to laugh and shake my head.  Good thing I didn't delete my old blog account.  I can revisit it any time I want.  Anyway, what's so good about keeping my old blog is that I can re-read what I wrote and I can compare the changes over the years.  And speaking of changes, I can proudly say that over 3-4 years, I've matured.  I can't believe how skeptic and pessimistic I was.  How shallow and insecure,too.  I had trust issues -- trust issues not only to others, but to myself as well.  I was so scared of loving.  I always wanted to be 2 steps ahead of everything.  Sure, at some point, I was happy with this immaturity, but now, I am completely happy.  Over the years, I learned to trust myself and others.  I became optimistic and I gained self-confidence. And most importantly, I'm not scared of loving anymore.  I'm so glad I'm experiencing the feeling of giving an unconditional love.  It really is rewarding -- loving someone without asking anything in return, without pressuring your partner or whatnots.  Time does a lot of wonder, really.  And I'll never delete my old blog account, and so as this blog (in case, I get to make another blog or I ger tired of updating this site) :)

06-24-11

Warning: This will all be random shits

Time flies by so fast, like really fast. 

I looked into my brother's recent photos and that's when it hit me -- he's all grown up already.  He's starting college and he looks like a big man now.  Well, he looks a bit like father.  I can still remember vividly how I would tease him and make lambing to kiss me or ask for his permission to bite him. 

I just miss those times when he was still a kid.  How I wish I could go back to those times and be less mean to him and be more patient.  Ahhh. . .good times, good times.  They're just really the good times.  They'll be memories from the past that I would never get tired of sharing with other people. 

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Sigh. I miss writing. I don't know what happened but it seems to me that I'm having a writer's block.  I miss how I would immediately write about something.  Ugh.  I hate this unwanted hiatus in writing. Oh well, pretty soon, I hope, I'd be back.

P.S.: To the Big Man Up There, I'm kinda lonely right now.  I'm bothered by things I shouldn't be bothered with.  I need Thy comfort and please let things be okay. Thank you. -,- 

Just all too much to take in a day.

Death. loneliness. paranoia. -- these things are so hard to take in a day.  

Death makes life so surreal.  It's like one day you're still alive and kicking, then the next you're 6 feet under the ground.  I'll never understand the logic behind dying at a very tender age.  It's just so unfair. It's like life's telling you "hey, I'm a bitch. Imma punch you anytime, anywhere".  It's like "be careful" doesn't make sense at all, because after all, we're gonna die anyway.  

I've never been so lonely in my whole life.  I have people around me and yet something's missing.  And this loneliness is so scary.  I just can't stop crying.  I want my family, I want my brothers to be here.  I want to be with my boyfriend.  I want to be happy, just like my any normal day.  I want this loneliness out of me. It's going to tear me apart.  

I've never been the paranoid one.  I always think of happy thoughts.  I'm Miss Brightside for crying out loud.  And now, I just don't understand, how paranoia suddenly crept up my system.  It irritating, it's like I want to throw things and shout. It's messing with my head and crashing down my confidence. I don't want to be an insecure bitch. I'm not like this and I hate it so much.  And I can't tell this to the very important person in my life because I'm scared of what he might think about me.  

I'm starting to be a loss cause.  I want my sound sleeps back. I don't want to cry anymore.  I want my happiness back.  

Catching Up

Yes, I have a lot of catching up to do.  It's been awhile, I can't even remember the last time I wrote here. 

Anyway, I finally had my well-deserved vacation.  I went back to Baguio for 10 days because it's my brothers' graduation. Here... 

Shoti laki's Chinese graduation

Shoti liit's graduation. And yes, please look for the black sheep! :D 

And I was also able to hang out with my best friends! :D Weeeee.  It's been a while and I was so glad I saw them again.  

But then, the highlight of my vacation -- I ate one day old chick, again after 5 years! :D

yes guys, this is an odoks! :D YUM!! :D 

I also hang out with my family.  We went to a hot spring resort.  I was able to try steam bath which was a very funny experience :)) 

the gang ;) 

We also made a side trip in Manila for a few days.  I had fun getting lost inside a mall with little brother.  If we didn't get lost, I wouldn't able to see the Etude shop and find the band shirts I've been looking for. 

So yeah, this summer is pretty much fun.  I hope the fun won't stop.  And yes, things between boyfriend and I are good, I couldn't ask for more :) 

P.S.: Little brother is here in Davao.  Sad, though, that Shoti laki can't come here because of their early enrollment (he's entering college now!) So, so proud of my two brothers :) 

Everyday ♥

Got a letter in the mail today
And I'm glad you're doing fine
You tell me you're missing me
And it's cold in New York City


Well me and the girls, we're alright
Thinking about you night after night
And if you feel the same way too
Just imagine me whispering to you


Everyday I'll always love you
Everyday I'm always thinking of you
Everyday's another lonely day without you
Everyday you're here beside me
Everyday I'm always dreaming of you
Everyday I will be right here waiting for you
Everyday . . .


It's another long and sleepless night
And thoughts run through my mind
Guess I'm just feeling lonely
It's been so empty since you've been gone


I'll be holding on for it won't be long
I'll be counting the days 'til I see you home
I know you feel the way I do
Just remember the words I'll say to you

Calling all dads

Hey Pa, what up? You've been on my dreams for 2 nights already and it makes me miss you even more T.T
Sigh, i miss you, Pa.
I can imagine if you're still with us, you could have strangled the guy who broke my heart on my birthday and during the holidays. But then again, if you would see me this happy, you would change your mind from strangling the guy to just being the strict and "be-careful-on-your-next-move-I'm-watching kind of dad.
I really miss having a dad. Having a dad around makes you feel more secured.  


So, to all the dads out there, please, please take care of yourselves, especially if you have daughters.  Your kids will need you not only when they're young, but more so, when they start to grow up and become men and women of their generations. Trust me when I say it's really heartbreaking to lose the first man they ever love.