Thank you letter

12:24 a.m. December 5, 2009

Thank you. Yes, my thank you letter to you and you.

1st you: 

Thank you for the deep shit we've been through. I did stupid things with you, because of you, and for you. I didn't know how to swim, so I was left behind stinking to death. I never thought I would be better. Oh yenoe all my sentiments before; how scared I was and how frustrated and sad and every bad feeling you could think of. But hey! I'm here now, alive and kickin' like hell! I'm just so fuckin' proud of how I matured because of what happened to me and to us, how I battled through the thought of being left behind and seeing all my dreams shattered right in front of my eyes. It took a while and it was never easy. And now, as I think about it, I can't help but to smile and think how grateful I am that those things happened before. I wouldn't be better if they didn't happen. And yes, I'm somewhat ingrate to you. Thank you for being such an a-hole (no puns or bitterness intended), I'm now stronger and wiser and more practical. And of course, thank you for all the good times. Trust me, I can remember them once in a while and it's so nice to think of them without any bitterness or regret inside of me. Soon, when we see each other again somewhere else, I'll thank you in person.

2nd you:

Oh how blessed I am to have you. Words cannot exactly describe how I feel. What we have right now is not perfect, we share our own ups and downs just like any other couples. And I salute you for being so friggin' patient with me. I'm not the best girlfriend ever, I'm not a goody two shoe. You know how mean and moody and crazy I am and I'm so thankful that you're so understanding. We've been through a lot already and I still want to go through a lot of things with you. I'm looking forward to the years I'll be with you. Thank you for being so generous with compliments and helping me build my self-confidence back. Thank you for accepting me whole heartedly when you know I'm not exactly the girl you want. I want you and no one else, and I know, I'm confident that you also feel the same. And I thank you for that, for giving me assurance even if I don't ask you to. I just like the thought that we're in love with each other. *sigh* This "thank yous" will never end, it's a long list of thank yous for you. Don't worry, I'll always thank you when we're together. :)

Love me and me

12:50 a.m.