Hi there. I'm trying to write what I feel. I used to do it but now I don't know why I'm having a hard time doing it. Maybe it's because I'm holding back and I don't know why I should hold back, it's not like a lot of people are reading my posts.
So, anyway, I miss boyfriend. I miss him even more just thinking that he would be here for the holidays. We've been trying to survive our long distance relationship for 6 months already and so far, we've been doing great <3. However, it kinda scares me when I think of the future. The thought that maybe we'll have an expiration date scares me. I pray we won't have that (expiration date). I don't like having him as an ex-lover. Ugh. Why am I having this feelings, in the first place? It's not that he's giving me any reasons for me to feel this. Sigh. I really don't want to think about this, because once I start having this thought, I have the tendency to over-think and over-thinking is not healthy for me. It can make me crazy for like days until this odd feeling goes away.
Sigh, I just want to sleep this feeling away. . .
P.S.: I miss my brothers,too. I can't wait for next year, I would like to see them and hang out with them.
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