Calling all dads

Hey Pa, what up? You've been on my dreams for 2 nights already and it makes me miss you even more T.T
Sigh, i miss you, Pa.
I can imagine if you're still with us, you could have strangled the guy who broke my heart on my birthday and during the holidays. But then again, if you would see me this happy, you would change your mind from strangling the guy to just being the strict and "be-careful-on-your-next-move-I'm-watching kind of dad.
I really miss having a dad. Having a dad around makes you feel more secured.  


So, to all the dads out there, please, please take care of yourselves, especially if you have daughters.  Your kids will need you not only when they're young, but more so, when they start to grow up and become men and women of their generations. Trust me when I say it's really heartbreaking to lose the first man they ever love. 

01.30.11

Especially for you
I wanna let you know what I was
Going through
All the time we were apart I thought
Of you
You were in my heart
My love never changed
I still feel the same 

Especially for you
I wanna tell you I was feeling that
Way too
And if dreams were wings, you
Know
I would have flown to you
To be where you are
No matter how far
And now that I'm next to you 

No more dreaming about
Tomorrow
Forget the loneliness and the sorrow
I've got to say
It's all because of you 

And now were back together,
Together
I wanna show you my heart is oh so true
And all the love I have is
Especially for you 

Especially for you
I wanna tell you, you mean all the world to me
How I'm certain that our love was
Meant to be
You changed my life
You showed me the way
And now that I'm next to you 

I've waited long enough to find you
I wanna put all the hurt behind you
And I wanna bring out all the love
Inside you, oh and
Now were back together, together
I wanna show you my heart is oh so true
And all the love I have is
Especially for you 

You were in my heart
My love never changed
And now that I'm next to you
No more dreaming about
Tomorrow
Forget the loneliness and the
Sorrow
I've got to say
It's all because of you 

And Now were back together, together
I wanna show you my heart is oh so true
And all the love I have is
Especially for you 

Together, together
I wanna show you my heart is oh so true
And all the love I have is
Especially for you

01.09.11

Thank you.
Thank you for giving me the chance to realize that I am capable of giving unconditional love, a true love I thought I've already seen before.
It is only this time that I could proudly say that I love someone truly.  Regardless of the person's imperfections and short-comings; of the person's inconsistencies and dilemmas.  I finally learned to love a person for everything that he was, he is, and he will be in the future.  
Being able to feel this way, liberated me in a whole new level.  It showed me a lot of things, made me realize a lot of things.  It really taught me patience and compassion for the other person.  I forgot how to get mad or get even, or even get cold.  The pain I felt was nothing compared to the happiness I feel just seeing the person happy.  
Being able to understand the person no matter how absurd it might seem to other people is surprisingly rewarding.  
I also learned that when we truly love someone, we never question whether the person deserves it or not.  Unconditional love knows no questions and boundaries and limitations. It is always absolute. 
Thank you Lord for making this person an instrument for teaching and showing me what true love is. . .